My Passion, My Desire

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Deep into the thick of the night
Within my each heartbeat lies
The vivid memory of every time
You, the only love I’ve ever known
Your delicate fingertips
Grazed the edge of my skin

Each unread page of a book
That sits gathering dust
Heralds the endless thoughts
Of the long warm hours
I spent with you

Do I shake and tremble
Do I shiver on a summer night
Am I lost to a helpless vision
Does an eerie calm reflect
The truth, I’m lying to myself

And the moon burns white light
Into the paralyzing midnight gloss
Reflecting the icy austeriy
From the quickening depths
Of my piercing blue eyes
As I stare out the window
Wondering on the life that follows
If love is a certainty

Should destiny be kind and fate listens
If eternity for once could surrender
To elude the clouds of infinity
The hope ascending from my deepest wish
Will fullfil the runaway madness I feel

When you complete the tender empty spaces
Where my passions and my desires
Rise like embers from the flame of a lucid dream

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Sins

Like darts flying through the air
These sins pelt my body, sprouting blood
Leaving me spotted with the punctures
Of all of my failed desires

Or like the droplets of a storm
My sins fill the seas till I am stranded
And all around the spoils of my lurid passions
Surround me in swells of forlorn waves

Thoughts of a distant age will not yield
Like corrosion eating away at my heart
Where the last of my innocent dreams
Deteriorate, detaching the last clinging strands

If once red be thy sins, as scarlet
As white as the white rose I become
Yet in the space of time that waits for none
My unforgiven white reveals,
The fading dull grey
Of yesterday’s pain

Regret

Is there any point to counting
The number of sins I have committed?

Like bricks, I can stack them to the sky
And sideways, I cannot reach the ends

I light the candles to ponder on
What I could have done differently

But the pain remains the same
Each time I look into the mirror

I feel inside the vitality of another day
But the mirror doesn’t lie about the past

In my eyes I see the look that stares
Someone I see that’s different, that’s me

And I carry the load, bending my back
Perpetually forced to carry the weight

Searching for someone to hear me, to listen,
To understand the tale of my thriving regret

Exile

I can never forget
Being exiled
It was such a lonely feeling
The world was just
Different all of the sudden
I met people I couldn’t know
I kissed people I didn’t want to
Skepticism ruled me
I did things robotically
And I kept your picture
On my nightstand
Until I realized that
I would never see you again

My Party

Everyone is invited, a festivity it will be
There will be cake, there will be wine
And for all my corpse to see

You’re all my guest, I’ve covered the costs
When you arrive, I’ll be alive
When you leave, I will have died

Please bring some friends, and live it up
Music will play, people will stay
For I am the show that’s to be

I’ll shake hands, and smile a lot
Be certain not, to forget anyone
I’m leaving this place for the next

No one should cry, I have my own will
It’s what I want, my final desire
Those who know me, they will comply

The party will be, happy and joyous
An end to the pain, new life to regain
My still body will provide all the proof

If in the night, suddenly awake
Upright in your bed, a recollection
I was happy to visit your dreams

Our hearty laughs, once under a tree
Or maybe we were, with all our friends
Your smile is what produced mine

Into the void my
Cherished lost memory
I can’t bear the loss
I’ve hidden it, no one can see
Getting back what is gone
Can simply not happen
I’m having a party
To celebrate my victory
Over pain, and undying
Misery